Yin and Yang is about balance. Every aspect of us has the light and the shadow as does this quote. In seeing beauty in me, it is reflecting what is in you. If you see anger, hatred, in me, that is also a reflection of something that is in you.

A common theme I heard from clients this week was “If I could just figure out what I am passionate about, my life would be so much better”?

I found myself chuckling, as I knew how many times I have said that.

How often do you hear the words "just let it go" and find yourself going, if I knew how to do that, don't you think I would? If it was that easy, don't you think I would have, was always running through my mind. Then it it hit me....maybe I don't want to let it go. Maybe I like having the worry, or the sickness or all the possessions of my past go” and find yourself

Being in a relationship exposes areas of our vulnerability.  One thing, I have learned from clients, myself and watching others is that it is really difficult to tell the other person the truth until you face your fear of being afraid of losing them.  You have to surrender to the need for the other person to be there, the deep fear that you feel creeping in when you allow yourself to think about what your life would be like without them.  All of that fear needs to be gone.  Sit with the feeling that they are gone, experience the sadness, and the realization that you will still exist without them without breaking apart.

In delving into emotions and their effect on our daily lives, the word disappointment kept popping up in conversations.  I would hear clients talking about disappointments, any time I would open social media, there would be some disappointed about this or that.  No matter where I looked, I would see the word disappointment.

At the market this morning, I ran into someone I haven’t seen in a couple of years. After a quick catchup, I found myself in a conversation that lately has become familiar.  What is it about humans that we stay in relationships too long--- even when you know deep inside the person you’re married to, living with or dating isn’t right for you.

My answer to her was FEAR. 

Often, we live most of our lives with meanings from childhood all around us, "be a good girl", "to succeed you have to do or be this or that", "you have to work hard at everything" and many more. Through the years, you become all that conditioning and somewhere you have lost yourself. In time you will be challenging the image of who you have told you are and who others 'think' you should be. From experience, I will say, you will go to some dark places and be way off your path. Truthfully, you have lost your authentic self and the journey back depending on how long you wait, may bring along days of being uncomfortable.

When one has been doing deep inner healing work for a significant amount of time, ego, loves to pipe in and say, are you done yet?  I chuckle when I hear that voice as I have come to realize that healing is never done. There are more and more layers to uncover and if you think you are done…..the universe will come along and quickly alert you that no, you still have more to do.  For this to happen, you first have to be awake that there is even healing to do.

Reflection is a great reminder of where we have been.

In looking back, it is so obvious how many times, my soul was doing all it could to guide me, but I was so busy with my agenda, so distracted to what I thought was important that I wasn’t just paying attention, I wasn’t even in the same landscape.  Even when the ALERTS were obvious.  This is a warning or in many cases loud announcements saying this is what you need to do, I disregarded them.  As I was looking back this morning, I began to chuckle as I remembered so many of those signs that were alerting me, a couple close calls with death from illnesses/diseases, three rear ended car accidents, of which the last one, finally woke me up. 

Upon waking up each day, we are given a beautiful gift.  This gift gives us the freedom to design our day.

How amazing is that!!!!

“Whenever we seek to avoid the responsibility for our own behavior, we do so by attempting to give that responsibility to some other individual or organization or entity.  But this means we then give away our power to that entity.” ~ Scott Peck

Midway through last week, I heard a very loud message inside of me that I needed to disengage from life for a few days.  I had been in the midst of diving in to do some deep inner work and found myself struggling with how to get all day-to-day done, handle my client load, spend the time in spiritual healing, taking care of my health and answering the call to disengage.

“Somewhere inside that hurting body, there is something better, something stronger, something real.” ― R. M. Drake

This past week I have been contacted by former clients and a couple friends for guidance on people they know and love who have recently been diagnosed with autoimmune disorders.  I automatically feel that knowing deep inside of me and all that happened in those moments of hearing you have multiple sclerosis.