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How often do you pay attention to your dreams?  For the past 10 or so years, I have had a dream journal that I write down different aspects of dreams that have stayed with me to reflect upon later.  It all began after attending a workshop on dream analysis based on Carl Jung’s work and has continued as I have studied and been immersed in mysticism, shamanism and other ancient ways.

Last night I had a dream that was intense and incorporated many teachings I have been exposed to and immersed in.  The dream began with women of today, all going about their day.  I saw women busy with raising children, working, tending to homes, going to school, in the grocery store, at events with the kids and so much more.  There was all this hurrying here and there.  I witnessed small bursts of conversations with other women, about how tired they were, how overextended, how much weight they had gained or lost, how ugly they felt and there was this underlying general “bitchiness” in the conversation about themselves and other women.  I was able to see the underlying fear that is ready to burst, this deep unknowingness that this is all due to how women have been raised in a culture that diminishes us as we continue to live in a male centered world.

As the dream continued to spiral, I was in ancient times with women who had immense personal power.  These women were the goddesses of many different cultures all showing their female bodies in various forms.  Some of the women were naked and walking proudly, nursing and nurturing their children with joy and happiness on their faces.  Other women, in various sizes were in the fields, gathering plants and vegetables and fully immersed in what they were doing with no thought to how they looked, or what others were thinking or saying.  I saw women helping other women to give birth in the home or in the fields, while other women tended the children.  I saw women just supporting each other, with no agenda, no violence, no fear.  I saw Goddesses in their full embodiment, where their bodies and beings were holy, sacred and honored.  There was no shame, no sense of being ALL to everyone.  There was no competition, no judgement of what other women were being called to do even if it was different than someone else.  

All women were being honored ….. and then my dream amped up and I was brought back to  today and how we seldom honor ourselves.

The images brought forth how so many women are walking around in continual chaos, many buying into voices around them that are unhealed and leading them deeper into chaos, not questioning what is being said, and so deeply immersed in “group think.” 

Boom, then I woke up.

The dream reminded me of three classes I have taken recently all taught by friend and mentor, Liana Shanti.  The courses in no order are Mother Wound, Lifepath Manifesting and Unlicking Ancient Gifts and can be found at www.lianashanti.com under programs.  I then had a few passages of books, I had recently revisited, Descent to the Goddess: A Way of Initiation for Women, by Sylvia Brinton Perera, If Women Rose Rooted: The Power of the Celtic Woman, by Sharon Blakie and Shakti Woman: Feeling our Fire, Healing Our World- The New Female Shamanism, by Vicki Noble all pop into my head.

This dream might also be related to yesterday being the 7th day in a row of chanting “Om Dum Durgayei Namaha” 108 times in meditation.  Durga (Hindu Warrior Goddess) is the protective mother of the universe. She is the protector of all that is good and harmonious in the world.  One of the translations is “the one who eliminates sufferings.”  Her appearance in paintings and statues is easy to recognize as she appears multi-limbed so that she is always ready to protect/battle evil from any direction. 
 
The meaning of the mantra if you are interested is as follows:
Om- the sound of the universe.  The essence of everything
Dum- the seed mantra (sound) of Mata Ji Durga
Durgayei- The complete
Namaha- In your essence we bow to YOU.

I chose this mantra as it is used for protection and in chanting daily, asking the Divine Mother to eliminate all the mental, physical and economic problems in one’s life, or with my intention, the collective.

Since starting this chant, my dreams have been more intense, and a few obstacles in my own life came to the surface and sent me spiraling into an old pattern of mine, of distraction and lower energy vibrations. 
 
Or maybe it was conversations with two women (Monica and Liana) in my life last night, on what in those moments looked very unrelated and yet were related in so many ways I had never imagined.  They may have ignited this dream for me to find a way to break my own chaotic patterns and at the same time knowing full well, what I heal in me, I heal in the collective. All I know is, in this moment, I am full of gratitude.

It is time for women to come into the light.  To dive in and journey to the unconscious, leaving behind all that we have been taught in this male dominated world and meet the frightened, angry, scared, repressed female, who is in PAIN and feels suffering is part of her path.  We have it within all of us to RISE UP and heal all of these unacknowledged parts of us and emerge with consciousness of the divine feminine energy we all carry.  To face the repression of 3500 plus years and heal it, integrate it and learn to love all aspects of ourselves in body and spirit, unconditionally.  

We have lived for too long without the full embodiment of what it means to be feminine, to live where the feminine voice is not repressed, where our bodies are accepted fully in whatever state presented. They are not sold or controlled.  It is time to awaken to a space where all (both men and women) live with balance of their divine masculine and feminine.  Time to understand we need both, not a world where the left side (feminine energy) has been nearly paralyzed.  The divine feminine is needed for the days ahead.  I have seen the light beginning to brighten in many of the women and men I meet, but there is still so much more to bring forth.

Are you ready to dive into yourself and face the chaos and then free her to come to light and be a part of leading the way?

How Human Design can change your life

How amazing would it be to?

·       Consistently make correct decisions

·       Stress-free decision making

·       Understand and enjoy your unique characteristics

·       Live the life you have always wanted but didn’t know how to achieve

·       Recognize and let-go of negative conditioning

·       Live your design, love without fear

Human Design changes the way you live your life. Once you begin living from your Type, Strategy and Authority, the most noticeable change you will experience is making correct decisions.

Human Design’s basis comes from Nuclear Physics and Genetics and then combines with elements from the ancient systems of Astrology, the I Ching, the Chakra energy centers and the Kabbalah.  It is a logical and empirical system that you are able to use in your life every day.

How often have you said or heard others say, if only there was a manual for life?   Actually, there it is called your Human Design Chart.

To figure out your Human Design, all I need is your date of birth, time of birth and place of birth.  With that information, I am able to produce your Bodygraph.  The bodygraph (see example) will tell you whether you are a Generator, Manifesting Generator, Projector, Manifestor or Reflector.  Unlike how most of us have lived our lives, your Type is not a mental process.  It is how you are to function in the world.  It gives you a description of how to live your life.

The most amazing thing is your Type and your Design are unique to you.  In going over your chart, you will learn how to use your chart in practical ways and make your life the dream you always wanted.  What is better than learning to appreciate and use your uniqueness to uncover the you, that you were born to be.

Since learning about Human Design and incorporating it into my life, every facet has changed.  I am so much more at ease with decision making, being comfortable with my uniqueness, improving how I communicate and relate to others I am in relationship with and seeing for the first time, how to be the best me in work and in my spiritual life.

Human Design will change your life.

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In Human Design, once you gain an understanding of your type, strategy and authority and have started to experiment living with them, the next step is to really settle in to what each of your centers does and the differences between having an open/undefined center and a closed/defined center.  When a center is closed/defined (colored in your chart), it means that the function related to that center is activated, steady and consistently available at all times.  When a center is open/undefined (white in your chart), it means that the function related to the center is inconsistent; not always available and only becomes activated when another person (who has the center defined/closed) comes into your awareness or when a transiting planet completes a definition.  When this happens, the undefined center is temporarily defined.

When you look at your Bodygraph (chart), it is easy to determine what centers are defined and undefined by looking at the colors.  All the white centers are undefined, and the colors are defined.  This is also the way to see which of the person’s energetics is running consistently, and what is being influenced by conditioning and the environment. When a center is undefined, we have the propensity to take in and absorb the energies related to that center.  This normally happens by being around people who have that center defined.  If we have put ourselves into an environment that is unhealthy, it is important to be aware of the potentially ‘dis-easing’ effect of the people we are around. All of this is just important to remember that it is our responsibility to take care of our own being, for our wholeness. 

The Self/G center, in human design is one of the most important centers.  It gives us access to our sense of direction, purpose and love of life.  The center where the soul is located.  The liver is also represented by this center.

Who are you?

There are eight gates that make up this center and they connect to the 12 signs of the zodiac and, when the sun passes through them, align with the eight seasonal high points of the year (solstices, equinoxes, etc.)

When you have a defined G/Self center you normally know where you are going and are consistently connected with the ways of the world.  Your role is to give love.  Your sense of self is pretty solid, and you know where you are going even if you are not quite sure yet how you are getting there. 

When you have an open G Center, it is similar to living as a chameleon.  As the chameleon moves from one environment to another it’s natural camouflage of changing colors kicks in, and it begins to change its colors to fit in wherever it is.  If you have an open G center, you do the same.  You can fit in, wherever you are.

Here are 10 aspects of an open G center

1.  You may understand other’s people’s sense of self and direction.  It is quite common to take in another person’s identity and amplify it giving them insight into another person’s perspective.

2. You may also be constantly pushing the boundaries of life as though you have no limits.

3.  As this center is about direction, it is important to be in the right place at the right time.  With practice you will get that gut feeling of knowing if you are in the right town, right office or even the right home.  When you are in the right place, the right opportunities show up. It is also important to know you will also get a feeling about being in the wrong place and then get all the wrong opportunities or none at all.  It is all about learning to listen to the feelings in your body.

4.  You may have a fear that you are unlovable.  Part of this is because who you perceive yourself to be is always changing and therefore how you receive love is also changing.  May make children/then adults vulnerable to self-esteem issues.

5.  Having an open identity center gives you the ability to have friends and acquaintances from all walks of life.  You will be very comfortable in a room with someone with a checkered past and the chairman of the board.  

6. If you are in a relationship with someone with a defined/closed G center, it will be important not to get lost in the relationships and to remember that your partner may be better at giving the relationship direction.

7.  It is not your job to know who you are, or to use your mind to make decisions.  Surrender to the guidance that life naturally brings you.

8. Many with undefined G centers find themselves searching for spiritual truth.

9. The more aware you are of all the open G center brings, the less likely you will fall into following what cultures and traditions have deemed appropriate for you.  Instead, you will listen to the people in your circle with defined G centers that you trust and move into different environments and sense the comfort of where you now are.

10.  Be prepared that you most likely will not be in one place, with the same people, or even have the same furniture for long periods of time.  With an open G center, you are continuously moving through life changing your environment.  You may even show back up where you once had been, and it will feel completely different.  Yes, things do change, and you never know what your open G center is going to reveal to you.  Just remember it is incredibly present and aware of the changes and go with the flow.

It is important as you read through these traits of the open G center to begin to fully understand that the open G center NEVER knows who it is, it never will.  It will change and go through many identities during this lifetime.  Exercise your ability to choose the correct environment and people to surround yourself with.  Just remember as the environments changes so will you.

You have the ability to trust the universe and to simply allow life, love and direction to be shown to you.  This can be hard to understand, as we are conditioned from childhood to use our minds to figure out who we are, where we are going and so forth.  Yet, if you have an open G center, this is not who you are.  Surrender to the guidance that life brings to you naturally, and as you get out of your own way, so many potential possibilities will emerge for you to experience and have a love-filled journey.

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Generators in this world are here to be the true builders and creators of the planet.  They have a tremendous wealth of energy and power and there is nothing more powerful than when a generator learns to wait to respond as that is when the true power comes through.

In this blog on celebrities it is very easy to see when each of them did this.  When they responded correctly they easily attract everyone to them.  When generators have others come to them ask, they will give you all they have.  That is the perfection of the generator.

Robin Williams

As a generator, he had sustainable energy, meaning he could go and go, which was quite obvious when you look at the amount of work he was able to do and the energy he expended with his family, acting, comedy and his charitable interests. 

His chart is interesting to look at in that like all generators he has a defined sacral, which is a motor center.  Of the 9 centers in the body 4 are motors (which are about taking action), and he had all four of them defined (the spleen is not a motor- center on far left), which provided him all the energy he needed to take action.  What is even more interesting though is his throat center is undefined/open (third center down), which is our communication center and the energy needs to get there to manifest and make things happen and all his energy had no means to get there.  His energy is go-go-go but it doesn’t reach the throat, the area that makes things happen, yet he had no outlet to release it for things to just happen. So, this can be challenging.

An example for me is think of your car stuck on ice.  You can give it all the gas you want, but you will just be spinning and going nowhere. It is the inability to go forward, even though your are giving it all the action/power.  Once others recognize you need aid then progress can be made.

That happened for Williams, when he was recognized for his abilities in Mork and Mindy.  Once that happened so many opportunities just flowed into his life and he could wait to respond to what was correct for him.  It may be that before that happened, he experienced many challenges.

Open throat center is rare.  About 1/8 of population.  It can be a gifted mimic who can create characters or voices.  The open throat has an ability to take in throat energy from other people and enlarging it.  It gave him the opportunity to take in the communication style and had an amazing way of expressing it to others through his comedy and characters he created. When you have an undefined throat you also have the ability to speak for others, you can be a mouth piece speaking for others.  See Oprah Winfrey below she has the same open throat center.  The undefined throat does need the attention of others, to get the energy and link up to get the energy to the throat.  It is important for those who with open throats to get attention and be recognized to be able to share their gifts.  This also leaves it difficult for an open throat to know what is enough attention or not.  Think of a class clown.

He also is a 2/5 profile meaning, the 2 (unconscious)part of him the hermit likes his alone time, whereas the 5, the Heretic (conscious), is about using his life experiences to help others makes sense of all their experiences.  He had the ability to be a valuable resource for others.  This profile has a challenge in that the unconscious wants to be alone and the conscious wants to be seen.  It makes sense how being so public could be a bit much for him and so balance would have been important.

Robin Williams

·        TYPE: Generator

·        STRATEGY: To Respond

·        NOT-SELF THEME: Frustration

·        INNER AUTHORITY: Emotional - Solar Plexus

·        PROFILE: 2 / 5

·        DEFINITION: Split Definition

·        INCARNATION CROSS: Right Angle Cross of Laws (56/60 | 3/50)

·        NAME: Robin Williams

·        BIRTH DATE (LOCAL): July 21, 1951, 13:34

 Dali Lama

The Dali Lama, like Robin Williams, is a 4 motors generator.  He is a generator with that sustainable energy that will propel him to do all the things he loves.  He has the energy to go and go and we have seen him do that for many years as he is now over 80 years old. His energy has supported him in his travels, to be able to support his people and his causes.  His chart only has the 4-motor center defined and like Robin Williams, none of that energy gets to his throat. He has a lot of openness where he is taking in a lot of energy from others and amplifying it.  With his open throat, it is common not to always feel heard and we have seen that in not always getting the support for his people, but he has used the gift that is there to modulate and get his message across in a way that has been accepted by others and has kept him going.  He also through that open center has an ability to speak for others and he has done that.  If you can master the open throat you are able to really speak for others.  As his G/Self center is open too, his sense of direction for his life comes from outside of him.  We have seen this in how he asks others for support for his people.  His heart center also known as the ‘will’ center, gives him his willpower, which as we have seen in his life is very evident.  He has the ability to motivate others and like the throat this center is only defined by 1/8 of the population.  His presence has touched many of us in the world.

Having the opportunity to hear him speak live in 2006 in Buffalo, his presence magnified all of us and to this day, remains a memory, I cherish.

He has an interesting channel 37-40, which is all about agreements, being involved in community and peace and harmony.  When you think of what we know of the history of Tibet and its people, he has had many struggles to keep himself peaceful, keep his work and the other people involved peaceful, yet facilitate change for peace and harmony.

His chart shows that he also has the channel 60-3 which is mutation and all about a desire to bring change.  He has worked so hard at this all of his life being a voice and bring change to his people but also all of humanity.

Dali Lama

·        TYPE: Generator

·        STRATEGY: To Respond

·        NOT-SELF THEME: Frustration

·        INNER AUTHORITY: Emotional - Solar Plexus

·        PROFILE: 4 / 6

·        DEFINITION: Split Definition

·        INCARNATION CROSS: Right Angle Cross of Tension (39/38 | 21/48)

·        NAME: Dali Lama

·        BIRTH DATE (LOCAL): July 6, 1935, 04:38

·        BIRTH PLACE: Xining, China

Oprah Winfrey

Oprah is another generator that in knowing anything about her, you are aware she has the sustainable, consistent energy to keep her going in her work and personal life.  She is surely has shown us she can go, and go about areas of her life she is passionate about.

Like Robin Williams and the Dali Lama, she has the open throat center too.  Her gift of being able to communicate in ways that everyone around her can hear is well known.  She has also used her voice to speak for those who are unable or unsure.  She has lent her voice to speak for them, which is a gift of the open throat center. 

Oprah has many energies in her chart that support the path she has chosen to take.  In looking at some of her gates, (the numbers in her chart that are colored or activated) so much of her life path is clearly defined.  Energies that she was gifted with are:

Gate 62: The gate of Details and Facts.  This gate gives her the foundation to know if something is reasonable or unreasonable. 

Gate 43: The gate of Breakthrough that is constantly making available to her the ability to be ready to deliver deep insights that can make a difference in people’s lives.  This gate gives you the ability to have flashes of pure knowing, that others may not always seem to understand.  For her during these times, she really wants to just trust herself.

Gate 56: The gate of the Wanderer which is about traveling, expanding your horizons and discovering fresh new things in your life.  Home for her will be wherever she lays her hat.  It is also a storytelling gate, residing in her throat center, which gives her the ability when speaking to say, “It happened like this” or “You’ll never believe this.”  Her stories come quickly and she is able to weave them into a way of sharing that her audience gets.  This gate also arouses feedback from her audience to challenge their own beliefs.  For her life is about constant stimulation.  She is always searching for new experiences to add to her life story.

Gate 33: The gate of Retreat, the other storytelling gate.  These are reflective, sober and not highly embellished.  These are the authentic stories of her life that she is able to weave into a story everyone can relate too.  Her memory capacity is sharp, similar to having a database in her head and she can overwhelm her publisher or a director of a movie with all of her creative ideas.  A challenge is knowing when to retreat.  If she doesn’t take time to recharge, she could experience exhaustion or near collapse. 

Her chart is filled with other gates that all speak to her abilities and success.  It is obvious that either due to challenges she has faced in her life, or her experiences, that she has learned to use her sacral authority, her ‘gut instincts” and her splenic awareness.  It is also obvious she has found out that waiting to respond before voicing her ideas and stories (open throat), she could share in a way that has been very abundant for her.

 ·        TYPE: Generator

·        STRATEGY: To Respond

·        NOT-SELF THEME: Frustration

·        INNER AUTHORITY: Emotional - Solar Plexus

·        PROFILE: 2 / 4

·        DEFINITION: Triple Split Definition

·        INCARNATION CROSS: Right Angle Cross of The Four Ways (19/33 | 44/24)

·        NAME: Oprah Winfrey

·        BIRTH DATE (LOCAL): Jan 29, 1954, 04:20

Albert Einstein

In looking at his chart, the first thing I noticed was that his head, ajna and throat are all open.  The open head and ajna gave him his intellectual curiosity and his open-mindedness and if he was in school today, this would have given him many difficulties with rote learning.  He needed the space to be able to ‘think outside the box’ as with those centers being open he was constantly taking in information from those around him and turning it over and over. 

He had an amazing ability to learn new things, delve in with a passion and then just move on to something else, once the information was disproven or no longer accurate.  An example of this was his views on religion which he was raised with since childhood, but after reading a science text given to him, his views all change.  That is very common for those with an open head and ajna.  Another trait of the two open centers, is his learning came easily in the areas he was interested in (math/science) and preferred doing them on his own in his own way but had little time for subject matters that did not stimulate him in any way.

His ajna has 3 gates activated that tell a lot about him. 

Gate 11: The gate of Harmony, which is rich in imagination, cultivating ideas to bring about social harmony.  He was forever thinking about new ideas to keep things fresh and revolving.  He easily dropped outdated methods or concepts that no longer seemed relevant.

Gate 17: The gate of Following which gave him a natural inclination to be fair, balanced, and impartial.  He was not afraid of being strongly opinionated, but also had the ability to be a great diplomat or debater.  He loved to have his opinions tested and to encourage fair debate.   He was more interested in his quality of life, being able to envision and follow views of anyone who might show him ways to enhance his life.

Gate 24:  The gate of Returning, which is about rationalization.  He had a propensity to be intense, preoccupied, looking for missing clues or finding understanding.  This gate just cannot stop searching or digging.  It also means, one can become set in their ways and you have to be careful not to get stuck in holding on to old perspectives.  This gate also offers the possibility of potential bursts of insight if you can embrace them.

As you continue through his chart you are able to see that his sacral energy was a great source for birthing new ideas. His creativity was born here and is the type that is healing for our planet, and the growth of humanity.  This is evidenced in one of his channels the 59-6, the channel of Reproduction and Mating.

·        TYPE: Generator

·        STRATEGY: To Respond

·        NOT-SELF THEME: Frustration

·        INNER AUTHORITY: Emotional - Solar Plexus

·        PROFILE: 1 / 4

·        DEFINITION: Split Definition

·        INCARNATION CROSS: Right Angle Cross of Eden (36/6 | 11/12)

·        NAME: Albert Einstein

·        BIRTH DATE (LOCAL): March 14, 1879, 11:30

Do you see yourself in any of these generators?  Are you wondering if you are a generator? If so, find more information at www.sangeetram.com/humandesign