Grieving a divorce is similar to any other grief you may have experienced in your life. Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance are what most people experience during and after a divorce, loss, or other events that need to be grieved. You may experience each of the stages in a nonlinear way. I found I revisited them many times and sometimes a few at the same time. Stay with it, if you can. At times, it feels like it would be easier to stuff it all down, get into another relationship, or even go back to the one you are leaving. IT TAKES TIME TO HEAL. Give yourself time
There is no timeframe on grief, and it takes time to recover from a divorce. Time will be different for everyone. The best guidance I received was from my teacher and friend Liana Shanti, who shared that I needed a whole year on my own for real healing to happen. She was right in ways I couldn’t even imagine at the time. In my case, I needed a whole lot more than a year. I needed to find out who I was. When I left, I had never lived on my own. I hadn’t supported myself at any time in my life. I needed to learn to be independent, end co-dependency, and that old childhood wound of wanting to be rescued. There was so much to grieve in my world, and the divorce was just one part of it. I needed to find myself. Yes, at times, it was painful, but it was so much more. I began to remember what made me laugh, what made me have fun, how much I enjoyed the silence, eating when I was hungry, not because it was a particular time, and that if I wanted to go to bed at 6 pm to read, listen to a podcast, it was okay. I learned about setting my needs, wants, and boundaries that were healthy for me. It was a glorious time and the most freeing thing I had done.
Be gentle with yourself. Your grieving may take you to places you never dreamed possible.